So yesterday I had my next baby doc appointment. It was the very first one that I attended solo, since the very first one where they did a pelvic exam and all of that good stuff just to confirm that there was something growing (PS - there was!) Honestly, I was glad that I was there alone because I was hoping to chat with the doc about some of the anxiety that I am having, especially about the potential for needing to stop running at some point, and not being on meds anymore. Having J not there was definitely going to make it easier to open up and chat about real things. I was seeing that same doctor that I saw for the very first confirmation appointment who told me that he was a cyclist, etc, so he "got" the running, and was the doc who gave me the all clear to do it as long as it doesn't hurt (outside of ordinary running aches and pains!)
Before the appointment with the doctor started, I had to meet with the nurse for the normal stuff. Weight (12 gained, right on track!), blood pressure (120/70 - perfect!), and a baggie full of goodies, including one not-so-good.
The doctor ended up being kind of a bust. As I climbed up onto the table so he could listen to the heart and all of that, I kind of grumbled a little to get the ball rolling. He asked what was up, and I told him that I am REALLY struggling with the loss of control. I mean, I know that recently things have been better, and I truly have felt a little bit better, but I still want to voice my concerns. He listened, seemingly concerned and then said, well you are about to lose control of your entire life for the next 20 years. I could come up with no response to that, so it ended there. I guess that is why he is not a therapist? Regardless, I did not feel terribly put off, or turned off to him as a doctor, I want to make that clear.
When I got home from the doctor I need to do my best body bootcamp workout for the day. I had already done the steady state cardio over lunch, running outdoors, which was tough but felt great.
My major goals for this plan are to stick to it! And I am also cutting out diet coke. Haha.