Yesterday was another long, rough day. Addie was fussy for the majority of it, and I definitely struggle a lot when she is like that. I feel guilty or like I am not doing a good job when she is fussy. But we did pretty well overnight with 4 hour stretches between feedings, which is our goal. So I fed at 9 pm, 1 am, and 5 am, then we both slept till 8 am, when she fed again. So while the night was a success, afternoon/evening were really rough.
I am off dairy 100% and have been for several days now. Since Saturday, in fact. It is not easy, but I am hoping that this is part of the problem that she is having. Trouble digesting that protein. I hear that is a problem for a lot of babies, so giving up the dairy is something that I am willing to do if it will help her at all. The fussiness is a little bit too much to deal with sometimes, in reality. Granted, I have never had a kid before, but I do feel like she is more fussy than the average baby.
But anyway, that's enough about my current mommy struggles.
I have been back in my regular clothes all week this week. Granted, it has just been my regular workout clothes, so it is not like jeans or anything. Hopefully soon the jeans will follow. I still have about 12 lbs to go until I am at my pre-pregnancy weight. It is frustrating to feel so soft, and not to feel like myself. That is hard for me to deal with. I am working hard this week to clean up what I am eating, eat more real food, since when I first cut dairy I was absolutely struggling. Normal easy meals for me are things like a tortilla with cheese. And that is out, obviously. But now, I am getting there. I am getting the hang of things and eating much better food than I was.
I have one of those little belts. Katie gave it to me. I have been wearing it all the time, but unfortunately, even though it is a small, it is too big. So I keep wearing it, and I keep hoping it helps, it is just not that snug. It's not like it is falling off or anything, just not as snug as I think that it should be? I am really hopeful that soon enough things just fall into place. I am working hard. Eating well. Nursing. And hopefully soon it will be a worry of the past.