I am slowly learning that right now, having it all is very different than what I used to think of having it all. Right now, I know that dedicating my life to my family, J and Addie, etc, needs to be my top priority. Having a kid is interesting and different with the relationship that I have with J. I know that is pretty much par for the course in the first year of having a baby, at least, that seems to be the general consensus. So I need to be able to dedicate some spare time to him (spare time? ha!) Addie is an all encompassing, needy, teeny little peanut of a human. So she absolutely takes up tons of time when I used to do other things.
Things that I used to like to do?
- Go shopping alone
- Run first thing in the morning
- Cook meals
I need to come to terms with the fact that I could sneak in a run sometimes when I do not, but because that has fallen a little bit on my list of priorities, and I would rather spend the time with Addie and J. I know that I complain and feel guilty a lot (pretty much every single day) about not getting my workouts in, but I know that it is a choice that I make, regardless of the guilt and complaining. I choose to spend time with my family. I choose to focus on my job. I have made all of these choices for the betterment of the life of my family and they are the right choices for all of us right now.
Anyone else deal with this realization?